Energy Healing, Health, Journal

It’s a Small Fibromyalgia World

Kind of. To quote the National Fibromyalgia Association,

” Fibromyalgia is one of the most common chronic pain conditions. The disorder affects an estimated 10 million people in the U.S. and an estimated 3-6% of the world population. While it is most prevalent in women —75-90 percent of the people who have FM are women —it also occurs in men and children of all ethnic groups. The disorder is often seen in families, among siblings or mothers and their children. The diagnosis is usually made between the ages of 20 to 50 years, but the incidence rises with age so that by age 80, approximately 8% of adults meet the American College of Rheumatology classification of fibromyalgia.”

That’s an astounding number of people.

Yesterday I was reading Stacey Chapman’s blog, Fighting With Fibro, and I came across a comment from my mother. She has her own blog called Strangely Peculiar (which completely fits her), and has fibromyalgia for decades. Seeing that comment really brought home the fact that fibro is hereditary, though I hadn’t know that til very recently.

It also brought to mind the time when I first discovered that I could help others feel better, and I wanted to try and do what I call, ‘sending light’, and called my mom to see if she wanted to be my guinea pig. Now my mom is just like Scully…woowoo isn’t her thing, but facts are. So I figured she would be the person to ask, rather than someone in my woowoo world, because I would get from-the-hip feedback.

She agreed, and I began to send. Within 10 minutes she called and asked me what I had done?, and I kind of freaked out. I thought I’d messed something up or hurt her, but it was the exact opposite. She felt better, her head was clearer, her pain had lessened…she was amazed and I was, too. She has a comment here on the website concerning another session, that still, to this day, makes me smile.

I admit that I haven’t sent to here in too long (sorry, Mom), but today is a chill day and I plan to do just that. If anyone else would like some light, click here to purchase a session – the best part is that you don’t have to go anywhere or do anything to receive the light! – and I’ll get back to you and we’ll set up a time. A 30-minute session is $35.00. If you have any questions, you can contact me.

BTW, my flare has lessened some, but is not completely gone. I’m relatively new to this level of severity, and I cannot imagine how those of you who have it 24/7 function; I would love to just crawl into bed and stay there. Major kudos to all of you!!!

Fighting the fight,

Pip 🙂

©Pip Miller – July 2019

Energy Healing, Health, Journal

At A Loss For Words

Which is why I haven’t posted in so long. There’s too much to say, too much horror going on in the world and this country, too much…everything. What do you say to all that?

So I sit and retweet things on Twitter because others are saying it all and there’s nothing I can add to it. I cry and my heart breaks more and more each day. And don’t say “we aren’t this”. Obviously a vast amount of us ARE. And admit it, we always have been. We just sugarcoat things in history books and the news and to ourselves. Humans have an innate fear of things we don’t understand, and that turns to violence and rage and wars and murder and the list goes on and on.

We suck.

Not totally, but in many ways. Think about those little comments you say in your head when you see someone different, you know, the ones you would never say out loud because they aren’t nice things to say. It’s almost an unconscious act to have those thoughts. The problem is when people act upon them. Then the shit hits the damned fan and we end up with concentration camps (again…don’t forget that we’ve had them before; no ovens doesn’t mean they weren’t) and the government we have because they freaked out over a black president (what nerve he had!, they think)…

So…maybe not so much at a loss for words.

And this wasn’t even meant to be the focus of this post! I’m having a fibro flare like never before, and I am lost in the pain. Swimming in it. Someone get me the hell out of this pool, please. I’m reading fibro blogs, and something not in the slightest bit important jumped out at me: I like to read blogs, if they aren’t decades old, from the beginning if they interest me. Please, PLEASE put a calender widget in your sidebar! I read a post, hit ‘back’, and then have to scroll through the entire blog to get back to where I was. Over and over. ETA: discovered that if I read them via WordPress Reader, I can scroll through all the post. Win!

I’m just sayin…

BTW:

Want this shirt.

I’m too tired to eat properly, which isn’t helping at all, and I’m not sleeping enough, again, not helping, and I sit and read Twitter and blogs. I haven’t had a healing light client in months, which hurts my soul (honestly. I’m great at my day job, but it doesn’t feed my purpose in life), and this week, due to this flare, I won’t have a paycheck next week. Fun times.

OH, and I keep coming across people noticing that things they are doing online (and of course on their phones) are showing up as ads on FB and IG. Even from text messages. I re-upped IG recently because “everyone is on it and it’s the biggest marketing tool out there”…but those niggling feelings, coupled with our government now, has me planning to drop it again. Not that Twitter isn’t checking out our shit, too, I know. Stonekettle says that CounterSocial is a bullshit/Nazi/troll-free site, similar to Twitter, but you know how it goes…getting people to shift to something new is harder than getting that fake dude out of that office he didn’t actually win.

I think I’m out of words now. 😉

©Pip Miller – July 2019

Energy Healing, Health

It’s All Just Too Much

The endless news, the draconian abortion laws, the immigration crisis and people in cages separated forever from their children, climate change…

It’s too much. We are under such a tremendous amount of stress and fear right now, and it seems like there is no way out, doesn’t it?

Mr. Rogers always said, “Look for the helpers”…and now I say, “Look to the Lightworkers”. They come in different shapes and sizes, and they don’t always make a big splash, but they always manage to bring a smile and a feeling of “ahhhhh” to your day.

I do that by helping others with my energy work, my friend Pearl fills her timelines with pictures of all her critters and nature (warning, snakes!!!), Johanne, an amazing card reader and artist, uses Twitter for her mental health diary, and it’s awesome; there are those who refuse to pass on anything stressful, such as Tiny Buddha, which I adore, and Anne Wheaton (yes, Wil’s wife) is unfailingly optomistic and kind, no matter what is thrown at her…the list goes on. I could write an entire post with links to all the amazing lightworkers (who don’t even know they are one) in my Twitter and Instagram feeds alone!

Look for them. Weed out who you follow (my political list on Twitter was insane, and now I’m down to about 10 key feeds because I just couldn’t handle it any more), check out more cute animal feeds, go outside and read a book, take a day or two off social media (believe me, if anything major happens, you’ll still find out about it)…step back. Ask for help! Community is so important now, and an online one counts just as much as in-person.

And if you would like some energetic relief, I’m here for you.

With hope,

Pip

PS: I recently read “Walking Home” by Sonia Choquette, and there’s a line that I can’t get out of my head. It reads, in part, “…all I really wanted, more than anything else…was to be comfortable and comforted.” Doesn’t that resonate with you, too?

Energy Healing, Health, Journal, Planners

This Wounded Healer Takes On Building A Healing Business

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~Image from my embodiedawareness.wordpress.com~

In my last blog post I mentioned breathing problems, and, as with so many of us who live with chronic conditions, adding a new problem to my admittedly small list is a bit overwhelming. I shake, I have pain, and now I have compromised lungs. Woohoo. Not.

Three bouts of bronchitis and one of pneumonia over the past three years has done enough damage to my lungs that working in a manufacturing environment meant that the chemicals in the air necessitated inhalers, which didn’t help. More than once I got into my car at day’s end and sat there, gasping for air. After literally nearly choking to death on congestion while sick with bronchitis (the most terrifying thing you never want to go through, let me tell you), the fear of not being able to breathe is a constant, and as I tweeted, “You don’t realize how much you take breathing for granted until you can’t!”

What this has done – again, touched on in my last post – is create a determination to live the life of my dreams, helping others with my healing work. Planning isn’t my strong point, but I’ve turned my Passion Planner into a business planner, keeping track of blog and social media ideas, as well as client appointments and feedback. I’ve got my eye on a guide for business and blogging from Blessing Manifesting, too.

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I’m taking the need for little physical activity as message from the ‘verse to knock my shit off and run this business as a business, otherwise what’s the bloody point, right? Squandering my ability would be such a waste, and if I don’t do this, I’m going to look back one day and regret being too scared to really step up and make a serious go of it. I’ve done it half-assed over the years, having that “it will all work out” mentality, but in reality it hasn’t, and it’s because I blithely expected a successful business to just fall into my lap with as little effort as possible on my part. I tend to go through life that way, as I’m sure many of you have noticed. 😉

This journey is going to be something new for me, and I hope to be of service to you as I build this dream bigger than I could have ever dreamed!

©Pip Miller – November 2018

PS: All healing sessions (except Dare) are 30 minutes for $35. And you don’t even have to leave your home!

Energy Healing, Health, Journal

So This Is What A BIG Fibromyalgia Flare Feels Like

Make. It. Go. Away.

Please.

Oh, my gosh, everything, and I do mean everything, hurts. Even my eyeballs. And my feet hurt so much this morning I could barely walk. I’ve never had it feel this bad before…this is…there aren’t even words for this. And my tremors are off the charts at the moment (you should see all the deletes I’m doing as I type this). If I was still working, I would have had to call off because there’s simply no way I would have made it through the day.

The sad thing is, SO many people, especially women, have fibromyalgia and this is a normal day for them. If this is a portent of how things are going to be from now on, can I just curl up in a ball and cry for a while? When my dr. confirmed I had this, she said she wouldn’t wish it on her worst enemy, and as it was fairly low-level for me at the time, I didn’t understand the sentiment as well as I do today.

Image from pctechmag.com

In other news, I’m returning to a description that I used to use for the healing sessions: Prismatic Healing. Why that name? Because many, many people see colors as they are receiving light, and not just the usual purple or white, but my cousin saw apple green and someone else saw bubblegum pink! In my mind, I see the light flowing into me as gold, sparkly light, and it prisms out of my hands, filling the person with whatever color meets their needs at the time. And so we have Prismatic Healing! I almost chose Prismatic Energy Healing, but an informal Twitter poll chose the former with an almost clean sweep.

June is over, and all sessions except Dare are back to $1.00 a minute, with a 20-minute minimum. I hope you’ll check out the pages about what I do! I look forward to helping you feel better!

With hope,

Pip 🙂

 

 

PS: is anyone else having formatting issues on WordPress? If I click on the icon to center text or move it to the right, they don’t work.

Energy Healing, Health, Journal

Shyness and Tremors and Brain Farts…

Oh, my!

I rewrote my home page the other day, and since then I’ve been thinking about my shyness. It’s causes me to actually be afraid of speaking for fear of saying something that will cause me to feel embarrassed and stupid.

I’ve lived my entire life with that feeling. I’ve become somewhat less worried about what others think as the years have gone by, but it’s still there, lurking beneath every word I’m about to say, just waiting to whisper, “Yep, you did it again, you idiot. Can’t you say anything right?? See how they’re looking at you? That’s cuz you’re dumb. You should just shut up. Always.” It sucks when you’re own mind attacks you.

My tremors began 25 years ago after my divorce, and one of the side-effects of this lovely disease/affliction/annoyance…I don’t even know what to call it…is that it affects your memory. As in, you forget words.

Do you see where I’m going here?

I can be mid-sentence, and all of a sudden a word that was right there in my head took a left turn (I’d say at Albuquerque, but I’m already here) and got lost on the way to my mouth, and something completely inane comes out if I don’t catch myself in time to just let the sentence die off*. Suddenly ‘pencil’ becomes ‘yellow thing..writes…eraser…’ if I’m lucky. Most times a word comes out that is so ridiculous that I blush beet red and want to sink into a deep hole right then and there. Embarrassment on an epic level.

I’d love to think these are just normal brain farts, but it’s happening more and more, and as a result the shyness is kicking back in again with a vengeance. I was using alcohol to give that ‘don’t care’ buffer, but I’m trying very hard not to drink anymore, so I’m kind of stuck here, swimming in anxiety over speaking, even to my guy or friends. I find myself hermitting (I know it’s not a verb, but it should be) more and more, and prefer texting over calling.

The weirdest thing? I can send someone light to help them with their anxiety, but I can’t help myself. Is that like a psychic who can’t foresee their own future? At this rate, “This Hobbit’s Life” is going to become “This Hobbit’s Hermitage”. 😉

Anyway…not really sure where I was going with all this, it just popped into my head this morning and wanted to be written down.

Much love,

Pip 🙂

©Pip Miller – May 2018

 

*Someone posted the word for that on Twitter just the other day, but I can’t find it now.

PS: the first icon was made by someone called “lit-gal” on Live Journal, the second one I made, and the third one I have no idea. I know they’re small, but they fit what I’m writing, plus, hello, Firefly! 🙂

Energy Healing, Health, Journal

You Wouldn’t Think Not Actually Talking To People Would Be Exhausting, Would You?

All you introverts out there know how it is.

~Ooooh, look, the internet! I can chat with people and learn things and not have to leave my house or speak to anyone! What fun!!!

And then it becomes:

~Who are these people and why am I following them? Why is everything so negative now? Why do I dread getting online now? What happened to the FUN????

The thing about being an introvert is that we, as my mom always tells me, “live in our heads too much”. So while we aren’t actually expending energy attempting to be extroverts out in society, we are still expending energy because every. single. thing. we read gets stuck in our heads.

All of it. The good, the bad, and the ugly.

And the next thing we know, we’re exhausted just by the simple thought of logging in, never mind checking emails, replying to comments, writing blog posts…yeah, curling up in bed with a good book is about all we can handle at that point.

Luckily, I can help. And by helping you, I help me, too. It’s a win-win for everyone! Y’all know I do distance energy work, and almost overwhelmingly the one comment I get most of all is that it helps them calm down, or, as my friend Kellianne wrote when I asked why people come to me for healing work, “Usually pain relief, but it usually helps my soul a bit as well.”

Pretty shiny, right? 🙂

Things are getting crazier and crazier online and in the world, so how’s about instead of suffering in silence, you click here, purchase a session for $1.00 a minute (15 minutes minimum), and let’s get you a bit of peace in your day. Sound good? Let’s do this!

Much love,

Pip 🙂

©Pip Miller – May 2018

PS: if you want to do some serious chakra-clearing, emotional unblocking, check out my Dare session! And don’t forget to read Amanda’s post about her experience* with it…she tells you about it much better than I can. 🙂

*the name of my website and the links in her post no longer work.

 

Energy Healing, Health, Journal, Nature

March…

What a month. Not my favorite March ever, that’s for sure, but far from the worst at the same time. If you’re an astrology buff, then Mercury Retrograde is kicking my ass, and hasn’t stopped. Not an astrology buff? Well, then, this month just bit. It’s as simple as that.

On the good side, things around here have been blooming like mad for a few weeks, and this is one of my favorite spring sights every year:

Yep, that’s my local grocery story. It’s always so pretty in March!!

I’ve had plenty of time to enjoy the seasonal changes, partly due to the social media break, and partly because I’m enjoying (can you sense the sarcasm?) a new fibromyalgia issue: headaches, dizziness, and nausea. Just all of a sudden I woke up with a horrid case of all 3 last Saturday, and every day since has had some degree of them. I did some research, and while the all-over pain is the most common symptom of fibro, these symptoms are pretty much next in line. There’s a way to help alleviate them called Trigger Point Massage (this website is great!) and I’ve been doing the massage, but it’s not quite kicking it, so ugh. Yesterday was a bad day*, so I spent most of it outside in the sun, reading. My hair hasn’t been this short in eons, so I completely didn’t think about my ears; I believe I may have sunburned the tips!

The urge to check Twitter has gone away, but the urge to tweet hasn’t. My head is filled with things like:

“My doctor rocks!”

“Two hawks just flew overhead, and then a raven. And then another raven. #birdwatch”

“Oooh, if you’re in Maryland, check out a new exhibit that my friend Michael is part of! #boostthesignal”

“I took all the apps off my phone, and now I barely touch it. Why do I have a smartphone?”

Random stuff like that. Instead, it swims around in my head until something else catches my attention. It’s kind of weird how the internet has done that to us, isn’t it?

I’ve been reading more blogs (when I do get online), and I’m really enjoying that. I’ve also read 3 books in as many days. 😉

Tomorrow night I’m doing a distance healing session, and yesterday I had an in-person very, very short one (it was for as long as I could stand up without getting dizzy). I’m so happy that I’m still being asked to help others; it really makes my day.

Much love!

Pip

©Pip Miller – March 2018

*People with fibro have “flares”, days when things are really, really bad. At this point, I’m calling the bad headache/dizziness/nausea days that term, because they really, really suck.

Blog, Books, Health, Journal, Social Media

Calgon Isn’t Helping Anymore

Found this on Instagram:

And yeah…

So much has been going on since my last post, and every time I sit down to write, you know what stops me? SEO. Thinking that I need to write the perfect subject line for SEO. I don’t know about y’all, but it is, as she says, exhausting.

Also, really? Doctor branding?? Just help me feel better, gorramit!!

So simple things first:

Twitter. Still using it, but a bit less because the news is so overwhelming and I’m in complete despair about the direction our country is taking. It was mentioned by a coworker that every single healer he knew has been sick since last year in one way or another. I hear that. Bronchitis twice, abscessed tooth that caused my face to swell up like a grapefruit, and the kicker…I have fibromyalgia.

Yep. I’m a spoonie. And let me tell you: finding out that I have fibro explained SO much that I thought was simply attributed to stress, age, and other things. It’s both a relief and well, it’s fibro. Not much to do about it. Add in my tremors, and medication isn’t really an option. When your mom, who has been sick for 30 years, tells you, “Wow, you’re really fucked up!”, you know shit has done hit the fan. 😉

As a result of being sick so often, I was let go from my job the day before my birthday. *heavy sigh* It was a relief on one hand, because I was causing so much annoyance and disruption by missing days, and on the other hand, well, there went my income. Unemployment is…we won’t even talk about it. I do enjoy being able to pace myself as the day goes on, and I take a lot more “reading breaks”…aka sitting in the sun for hours with a good book…than I was able to before. It’s helping.

It also means I have more time to do lightwork, so that makes me happy. BTW, did you notice that I changed the look of the blog? I think it’s a bit more device-friendly now.

Tumblr. Giving it another whirl, and so far, I like it. I couldn’t use “This Hobbit’s Life” as the username, so I went with the one I chose for Twitter. A little continuity there. The cool thing about Tumblr is that it seems to be a creative space, lots of authors and artists (and witches…oh my goodness, the number of witches!), and three of my favorite authors are there –  Neil Gaiman, N. K. Jemisin, and Claudia Wair (you haven’t heard of my dear friend Claudia? You will!). I’m sure there are more, but I haven’t come across them yet.

—oh, wait, I just went to copy Claudia’s link, and she’s not on Tumblr now. Here’s her website. Keep your eye on her! You can follow her on Twitter, and Instagram, and sign up for her newsletter!

All in all, I think that’s everything since last I wrote. I hope everyone is well – I’ve been bad about checking in to WP and reading blogs of late.

Much love!

©Pip Miller – March 2018

Energy Healing, Health, Journal

Essential Tremor and Healing

*I was moving some of the more interesting blog posts from my now-defunct other website to here. This is from September 2017.*

In my bios across social media, I state that I live with essential tremor (or on the shorter bios, just have #essentialtremor), but I don’t think many people really know what that is, or what it looks like. Tremors come in many shapes and forms, including Parkinson’s, but the type I have affects my hands and arms – and in extreme stress, my head and voice. Katharine Hepburn had essential tremor, though almost all reports mislabeled it Parkinson’s.

I’ve been sick with bronchitis the past two weeks, and as always, medications mess with my tremors. Even ones that are for tremors!! I had hoped to go into work today, not only to give the poor man who is covering my days a break, but because bills don’t stop for illness. 😉

Instead, this is how my day is going, and will until my meds are gone in another week or two. And there’s no guarantee that they will calm back down after the meds are gone, either. Last time it took months.

On the cool side, when I send someone energy (and especially in person), sometimes it feels like an internal energetic massage, and from what I hear, feels really good!

Life’s never boring, is it? 😉

©Pip Miller – September 2017/December 2017